Life's longing for itself

Life has been pretty fair till now. Even if I have not achieved much, it has always given me the strength to face any obstacles. Today I do have a lot of external pressures but internally apart from the emptiness, I am calm. I am completely aware of what I have been doing since last few years at least. It feels good to know yourself. The confidence you get when you believe in your own actions and the courage you get from standing for it gives a lot of satisfaction. First I used to think that courage is a pre requisite to take a strong stand but on my way I have realised that courage comes later. Courage is what you need when you are going through the process. It is required while facing the storm. To enter the storm one needs conviction and honesty. It is not easy to stand alone and fight but it is more difficult to give in and not give your 100%.

Where do we actually belong? Everywhere and nowhere. I was born through someone because I had a purpose to be here. I have grown up with few people because I am part of this world. Then I learnt many things because that is the only process of living here. I have to reach my death with all honesty because that is the only way to do justice to the purpose. If this is what we all live and die for then where does this feeling of belonging come from. I suppose I belong to this cosmos because I am part of it then what is it that I am looking for? Maybe the uncomfortable feeling is not because I don't belong, it is due to not being able to live the process with honesty. That is why the cosmos must not have accepted me completely. Now in this process we must be having some roles to play.

If doing justice to your today means doing injustice to your tomorrow then there is a problem as there is a contradiction. This is where I stop. Either I am on the right path but I will have to keep walking till I am sure that I am wrong. As far as right and wrong is concerned it is a very instinctive feeling. You can justify it in any case if you want. One cannot rely on any external things to decide anything and still one has to learn from them.

Does any other individual have any role to play in our life at all? If we meet people just to learn from them then there cannot be anything permanent. So logically as long as we can learn from each other we stay together or move on. But will life’s longing for itself ever by complete?